Leaving

I am leaving all that I have come to know in the past six years of my life
a wonderful group of people that have become great friends and family
I am leaving mainly because I miss my own family, but also because I am disappointed
disappointed of all the atrocities that happened around me in such a rich country.
Yes, look around you and you will find sadness in a corner when someone is shooting drugs into their system,
I see around me and see a homeless person lying on the street under dirty and crumple newspapers,
I cannot even start to comprehend how this people got here but I know how they got there,
because I was once in the brink of homelessness but found tremendous hearts that helped me along the way.
I turn another corner and see children being mistreated by their parents, and I cannot do anything
I have done something in the past just to find reproach and the authorities telling me these people were disciplining their kids.
I cannot understand why grown-ups prey on the youngsters that trust them
The grown-ups that we admired and were taught to respect
I know what these children are going through, so I am leaving
Although I am leaving behind a bunch of flowers that have only cheered me all this time.
I am tired of hearing the government spending our tax money and us not able to do anything about it
If we say anything it falls in deaf ears and the government does not care, because they are in power
I wondered if the people who put them there are happy with their choice? I really wonder!!
I am leaving a paradise of mountains and sea all around me
where the sun barely shines and the rain pours down for a long time
drenching me to the bone leaving me only wishing to stay inside,
I love this place but cannot stand it anymore.
I listened to the radio ads praising the good job of the government
they say "good government" has helped us through tough times,
What?! Hm, tough times we are dealing with right now and someone is spending ten billion building some village,
That in the end we will all have to pay for.
I am leaving because I am tired of missing my family and the sun shining on me every single day
The sun shining on me from January to December while the snow blows on my face at freezing temperatures.
I am leaving with a heavy heart because I leave the people who have loved me for a long time
I am leaving behind my best friend who I adore and care for with a big chunk of my heart
I am leaving great friendships cultivated with care and love.
I am leaving because I do not trust the system anymore,
I am hurt by the lack of interest the authorities showed when I was robbed of many things,
But I am only one, how many more are out there? I would like to know.
I have seen death, corruption, war, blood, sadness, and felt all that
But have never seen anything like I have seen here. Where am I? I wonder at time.
Why do people fight? Why is there war? Why are people at the top the greediest of them all?
Why can all of us live peacefully without hating one another?
Why can we all share communally all our resources?
Why do we people resent the rich? Is it their fault for having worked hard? Those who earn every single penny honestly
I wonder where hatred came from and how it has gotten ingrained in someone's brain?
Where did people got the idea that one group is superior than other?
I wish I could leave all this behind, I wish we could start all over again and live in peace
I wish everyone would be happy just to wake up and see another day
Life is very simple why have we complicated more than necessary
I am leaving, even though I love you

Don't want to go Home

I don't want to go home
where is empty and cold
Where there are no voices
where no one talks, not even me.
Home it is warm place to be but not for me
it is silent, it is dark, it is lonely
it is a place to rest, eat and get clean
it is a roof over my head from the rain
I don't want to go home
where there are no souls to speak to
no one to complaint to
nobody to love or make love to.
Home it is warm place to be but not for me
it is silent, it is dark, it is lonely
it is a place to rest, eat and get clean
it is a roof over my head from the rain
There is a box in the living room
it speaks only to itself and makes me laugh at times
but it does not give me warmth
it only shows me faces, figures, and colours.
There is a music box too that comes on every morning
I like listening to music it makes me happy
but not as happy as I wish I could be
it gives me something to sing about but not to really sing.
I putter at work for as long as I can
so I do not go home too soon or early
where there is nobody waiting
where there is no one to complaint to.
Home it is warm place to be but not for me
it is silent, it is dark, it is lonely
it is a place to rest, eat and get clean
it is a roof over my head from the rain.
I do not want to go home
where is empty and lonely
where no sound can be heard
where only one human lives
a human that talks or sees no one.
I do not want to go home!

Horizontal Line

I sit on the cold sand on any day
and I gaze at the horizon
what do I look for? Do I see anything?
What am I trying to find or see?
I look at the boats navigating towards the line
where the sun sets down under but where?
I see it disappear swiftly and slowly in the Summer
in the Winter is there but I cannot see it
I actually wonder if it is there, do you know?
It is so dark when the sun sets that it is hard to know
However, whether it is there or not one question remains
What do I look for when I look at the horizontal line?
which seems to be there, there far at the end of the ocean
I do not see anything but I imagine many things
I imagine the boats going down as if going down a waterfall
falling rapidly along the fast and furious running water
but then I imagine the boats going down smoothly and softly
as if being push by the soft current of a lake where peace resides.
Then I know that I have never been on a boat that far out to the line
so I do not really know what is there but there is something
but perhaps once I was at some other line and nothing seemed
to changed we continue navigating in a straight line
never going down or felt like it only straight but how?
I do not know but I will keep wondering just as I have all this time.
And you?

Under Siege

Under siege
I find myself
fighting a battle already won
questioning this war upon myself
that has ripped my heart apart
Under siege
nowhere to hide, nowhere to go
only an immense field of questions
but mainly waiting to know why
Under siege
lost at sea, I navigate seeing no earth in sight
but kind souls I have found
to protect me from harm
I found soldier angels that will protect me
angels who will battle along side me
to win the injustice at front
angels to encourage me on
I had given up, but an angel enlighted me
she filled me with the strength I needed
she filled me with the courage to fight
and win the battle upon my soul
Under siege
An angel platoon has come to my rescue
to protect me from harm and to defend me
to encourage me, to praise, to make me succeed
Under siege
I find myself
fighting a battle already won
questioning this war upon myself
that has ripped my heart apart
Under siege
tears run down my cheeks to the floor
long sighs, sadness invades my soul
anger takes over, but i most remain calm
Under siege
even if all the odds are against me
i have an army of angels and kind souls
an army of force not to be reckon with
you do not want to lose
Under siege
I find myself
fighting a battle already won
tears fall down my face to my pillow
and slowly i fall asleep
but wake in the night in fear
in fear of what? I do not know
all I know is I will win
I cry under the rain to disguise my tears
in cry under the rain to drown my laments
to wash my sadness away
I cry because there is nothing left to do but, wait
I fall asleep slowly, listening to the rain
the rain drops crashing down
drops bursting on the window pane
explosions of dew that wash my sorrows and my soul
Under siege I slowly fall asleep with tears in my eyes
tomorrow will be another day
maybe the war will end then

let me

take me to the edge
and let me stay there forever
let me feel the freedom of this life
without leaving your arms
lets meet at the pinnacle of love
and free ourselves of the displeasure's of life
leaving behind the hatred of this world
loving every second above the sky
lets sore through the heavens
navigate through the oceans of our imaginations
and live forever in the moment
without leaving your side
take me to the edge
and let me stay there forever
let me feel the freedom of this life
without leaving your arms
let me drift into my dreams an imagine
let us be one and many in one
let me float above the clouds while you kiss me
i want to swim in the air of your passion
and live in your mind forever
take me to the edge
and let me stay there forever
let me feel the freedom of this life
without leaving your arms
let me be forever young
let my craziness take over my life
let me be who i am for once
let me navigate the universe in your hands
i want to be free of this world
without being let go of this freedom
that captures me in this cage of air
where the sun shines in its purest form
the moon illuminates our nights along the shore
the wind blows our wet skin dry
and the nightly dark sky covers us with its blankets while we drift
while we drift under the unknown
and enter a new world
take me to the edge
and let me stay there forever
let me feel the freedom of this life
without leaving your arms
let me

Without Reason

I will never live without reason
For there will be no reason to live
I cannot think of one reason I would not live
The air that I breath
The sun I receive
The rain falling on my head
You are the reason I live
I will never live withoutreason
As there is much to you than meets the eye
There is more to me than these simple words
I should be the reason you can live without
I will never live without reason
Because there is always a reason to exist
There is the ocean around the universe
There is the sky blue, cloudy or gray
There is the fog in the morning of something promising ahead
These are the reasons I live with
I will never live without reason
For there is so much to discover in life
There is so much to hear and feel
There is so much to touch, to caress, to love
There are a million and infinite reasons to live without reason
Find your reason
I will never live without reason
There is a reason to laugh and to cry
There is a reason to think and ponder about
There is a reason as to why you are in this world
There is only one reason and a million more....discover
I would never be able to live without reason
I want to taste every single reason in the depths of my soul
I want to hear the reason my heart beats every morning
I want to see the reason my eyes open every day
I want to touch the invisible. I want to live
I do not want to live without reason...do you?
Find you reason

Discover

Can you see me
if you can't come closer
explore the fields in front of you and discover
discover the secrets of this mountain
its secret passages
its intrinsic labyrinths
its infinite nature
come closer
smell the flowers of my hair
taste the salt on my skin
drink from the fountain of youth
satiate your thirst with my waters
look into my eyes and see the love hidden
discover the depths of my soul
and love me forever
find me
Can you see me
if you can't look a little deeper
touch my walls with your bare hands
strain your eyes if you have to
even if your mind hurts trying to find me
Look at me
look into my eyes
open the windows of my soul
experience the love hidden inside me
do not be afraid to get lost
lose yourself in my arms
Explore me completely
touch the ridges of my rocks
caress them slowly and feel their warmth
hear its calling of desire love
whisper sweet nothings into my ears
make me smile with your voice
make me want you more and more and beyond
put your lips against mine and travel
feel my spirit in your heart
feel my love in your soul
embrace my happiness with your body
entangle yourself and never let go
Let me capture you with my beauty
the inner beauty i possess even if not physical
let me explore your land
let me be the conqueror of your heart and soul
let me into your mind
do not think while I entangle myself in you
let go of all your fears, i got you
i will not let you fall
only if you fall for me
i want to make you shiver
feel the passion of my being
the warmth of my body next to you
the beauty inside me
close your eyes and fall into the abyss
fall to the depths of the unknown
into the the chasm of ecstasy
fall into my arms
Let us discover together this land
of infinite and intrinsic highways
that transcend the depths of the universe
lets cross the oceans of our imaginations
and swim in their warm waters
where the sun shines
the moon illuminates
where the sand is silky and white
and where you and I are infinite.

DO NOT DISMISS ME WITHOUTH EVEN KNOWING ME

I am IN love

I am enthrall within you
I cannot escape even if I wanted to
You call me every day and it is hard to resist you
You enticed me offering me the world around us
How could I refuse when I know that without you I cannot keep on living
It is your sweetness that brings me to life
Your softness and all the goodness that you make me feel
I feel so alive being in you, I know it will last forever
You are like a sweet poison that only those who refuse you hate you
It is hard to imagine what living without you would be like
the idea of it makes me sad but having you in me bring me the joy I need
you give me a reason to be
you are the reason I will never cease to exist
until I refuse you and close the door on you.
In you I live
in you I believe
in you and with you anything is possible
you make me dizzy at times when I drink you
at times I feel overwhelmed with your presence
you fill my heart with feelings I cannot describe
you are incredibly hard to resist
you pull me in within you every time I have tried to escape
you hold me in you like a magnet at the centre of the universe
I am IN love
not a secret anymore
Love brings me to you and those around me
it brings passion to me and my surroundings
it makes me smile
I am IN love, I swim in it, I live with it
i will never want to let it go because if I do I will cease to exist
I will cease to create
I will be IN love forever with you
I am enthrall within you
I cannot escape even if I wanted to
You call me every day and it is hard to resist you
You enticed me offering me the world around us
How could I refuse when I know that without you I cannot keep on living
Many detest you but I welcome you
Many hate you and I keep on loving you
Some refuse you without knowing you completely, I want to know you
Few will find you irresistible in their lives, I need you in mine
I want you forever in me
I am IN love and within it I want to grow
I have immerse myself in you and I freely breath
I breath your sweet scents embodying my skin
You drive me crazy
I am IN love

Wooden Box

take this gift
a little dark oak box, a treasure
keep it safe and use whenever you need
do not let it slip away once you have grabbed it
it is my gift to you
only given to special people like you
take it but do not abuse it, it breaks easily
it is hard to find even in the Amazon
this dark oak is the best wood there is
its smells will bring memories to your life
of those times we have left behind
if you ever need to open the box, do it
listen to its music and follow its rhythm
dance to it if your heart tells you but feel it in your soul
open up to the possibilities of its melodies and believe
believe that everything is possible and not impossible
believe that this little box is a refuge for any storm lurking near by
know that wherever you go this box will go with you
it is a keepsake to keep you safe
it will reassure you when there are doubts in your mind
it will give you the strength to continue on no matter the circumstances
it will bring you the love you need in times of loneliness
it is just not any wooden box
At times you will wonder if you can really count on it
trust me you can
trust me because I tell you the truth
trust my word because it is worth something
but will not be worth if you do not believe in it
if you ever need to open the box, do it
listen to its music and follow its rhythm
dance to it if your heart tells you but feel it in your soul
open up to the possibilities of its melodies and believe
believe that everything is possible and not impossible
believe that this little box is a refuge for any storm lurking near by
if you are confuse look inside this box
it will give you all the answers you need
it will give you the hug so much needed
it will give you a place to crash in
it will be the shoulder you will cry on
it will fill your heart with it warmth and love
it will clear your tears and make you laugh
it will be forever yours.
Take this little box
because in it is my complete trust
but know that if you lose it, you can't never have it back!

i

today I thought about you
i heard a song that told me all about you
it said 'you deserve better than me'
i could not agree more with the lyrics
because I do deserve better than you
in the shadows you remain now
in an empty box with no name, although I know your name
it made me smile to know that I am finally free
free of you and your insecurities and your old fashion ways.
i walked peacefully looking at the scarlet red sky
painted with a few clouds here and there
and i smile alone and people look at me with wonder
perhaps wanting to know what is in my mind and why i smile.
i am the happiest i have ever been
and will never let it go.
i want to share it with someone
i want to let it loose and share this energy inside
i want to energize another being
i want to kiss, i want to love, i want the world
i want to hug, i want passion, i want more and more
days go by and they feel longer at times
i work and work to no end
i run, i walk, i live
i want to live to no end
and share this passion inside
i want my young spirit to flow all around
i want to share it with someone
i want to let it loose and share this energy inside
i want to energize another being
i want to kiss, i want to love, i want the world
i want to hug, i want passion, i want more and more
i want someone in my life