On the Job

On the job
the pressures surmount
the expectations beyond belief
it is hard to take
and what I most do?
There is criticism,
judgements are made without care
fingers are pointed and blame assigned
it is hard to digest
and you cannot understand.
Sometime ago, I came and was accepted
now it seems that things have changed 
and your expectations, I cannot accept
for realistic that they might seem to you
it is wrong
and what I most do?
There is a wave coming on
I'm running to safety but I get caught
I go under and come afloat to grasp for air
just a millisecond of air, to survive
and still you do not understand
On the job
the pressures surmount
the expectations beyond belief
it is hard to take
and what I most do?
I am falling apart right between your eyes
but there's blindness
you called me a child and treat me like one
that I cannot accept
Your criticisms hurt 
your words daggers in disguise
yet, I sit here in your office  
and listen to what you have to say
I sit quietly, attentive and hang
to every word that flows out of our mouth
the hatred, the rage, the ire flows and flows
saliva dripping down your lips
like a black sea  
because I'm not what you want me to be 
On the job
the pressures surmount
the expectations beyond belief
it is hard to take
and what I most do?
There is criticism,
judgements are made without care
fingers are pointed and blame assigned

On the Job
but not like any other day 
and I wonder now, what I most do? 
      

   
      

Fading

Little by little
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind
you are leaving, forever perhaps.
I check pictures of you but the memory is
faint
So faint, it is hard to recall your sweet laugh
or your pensive gaze
Little by Little
you are fading away
The memories of yesterday are
being erase day by day
little by little
fading into the sunset
to never return
The memories of yesterday
now in a semi-blank canvas
that carried colourful traces,
shapes, images of great times
that are no more
Little by Little
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind  
you are leaving, forever perhaps.
I don't want to say good-bye
but I am
Our time together was grand
but not more, for awhile now
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind,
you are leaving, forever perhaps.
Or perhaps
I am slowly walking away
from those times we once shared
All I know is that,
little by little
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind  
you are leaving, forever perhaps
                   

Memories

I don't have photos
but I have memories
Memories of our first meet
when we laughed together
when we cried or were just silly
I don't have pictures
but I have memories
that tell me that you are with me
and will always be
Memories
Of our last time together
walking on the street or having a coffee
sitting by the window without a care
in the world
I don't have pictures
but I have memories
that tell me that you still here
even when you are not by my side
Memories
to keep you alive in this life
Memories
captured instantly and never forgotten
I ring your phone just to hear your voice
one last time
It rings, rings and rings and there you are
your sweet voice saying hi
it brings tears to my eyes
I don't have photos
but I have memories
of those wonderful moments gone by
Memories
of your laughter, of your voice
of YOU
I don't have photos
but I have you in my mind
a picture perfect portrait
of you and me
walking down the street
side by side
throwing our heads back
laughing in unison
I don't have photos
but I will always have
memories of you and us

Essence Seen

I've seen essence
in the little things you give me
in the subtle touch of your hands
and the delicate kiss on my lips
You give me so much
and so little you get in return
i feel
but in the grand scheme of things
we both reciprocate and nothing is
lost
Essence is seen
in your eyes and felt in the core of my being
when in deep murky waters I swam
to keep a float but were drowning as if
in quick sand
Essence seen
is you
in all its realm
I finally seen who you are

Suddenly

You left today
a deep space in our lives
you left without notice
and so suddendly
You will be miss
but your memory will remain
your hearty laughter will stay
the images of you around us
will be with us
You left us in your sleep
We hope you did not suffer
yet we only wish you were with
us
We mourn you today
and cry because we'll never see you
again
but your memory will remain
You were a son, cousin
brother, uncle, grandson, nephew
friend, you were a man
You will forever live with us
in our memories and the memories
of those you met
We mourn you today
and cry because we'll never see you
again
Yet even though we know,
we are still confuse, why you?
so young and full of life
with so much to give
yet you have been taken
from us
and we still ask why?
We'll never know the answers
but one thing we know for sure
You were a son, cousin
brother, uncle, grandson, nephew
friend, you were a man
And today we cry and mourn
because we won't see you again
only in our memories of you
We cry and mourn you
because we feel left alone
and because we really
loved you and cared

Your Smell

I smelled your scent today
as I feel asleep in the warm of your
arms
A smell so delicate and masculine
yet soft, tender, enchanting
When you wake up I feel you
but smell you too
and you linger all day
with me as you leave
your scent on the hallway
when you go to work.
I love your smell
so soft, tender, enchanting
yet very masculine
The aroma of your touch
The scent of your kisses
all over my body
The odour of love in the air
when we make love
it is all from you
You linger with me
all day long so soft
so delicate, yet so
masculine is your smell

One morning

One morning we made love so uniquely,
full of passion and amazing love
we looked into each others eyes
we kissed, we touch, we were complete
One morning in the dark of our room
we truly kissed and caressed
we explored and found new meaning to our love
we connected in awe inspired ways
One morning in a hotel room
we loved each other with so much more
with so much passion than any time before
we felt all that there was to feel and more
One morning in a hotel room
in the still darkness of the morning
we discover each other again
one morning
we fell in love again

all day long

There are and a million words
that I wish to say
but none will really say what
I think but they will mean
everything I say and think
You are so beautiful to me
from dawn to dusk
from when the sun shines
and moon appears late
at night
Your touch so wonderful
it feels on my skin
you kiss so delicate and full
so tender yet strong
tame yet passionate
Your caress a magical touch
that makes me smile every time
Your presence so soulful and calm
yet intense and tender
Your smile so soft and delicate
yet so meaningful every time
Your gaze so intense at times
yet it conveys so much than just
one word
You are the sun that lights my day
the moon that illuminates my night
and the flame that keeps me warm
all day long

Beautiful

You are
the candle that lights my life
a beacon of life
in my life
You are beautiful
both inside and out
no matter where or when
how, why, which but
always

Words

All words will never say
all that is within me,
I think of many things
so many words to tell
you
but none will ever
encompass what you
mean to me
All words are indescribable
all words are useless at times
pain is not so hard to describe
it's either dull, throbbing, sharp
constant, intermitent
but LOVE is just not so easy
some describe it as amazing,
wonderful, great, awesome,
strange feeling, happiness,
bliss, cloud 9, swept of their feet,
special, fantastic, and so on and
so forth but the love for one
person whom one respects is
just to great to describe
to broad and never concrete
as this changes all the time
Everyday with you is different
no matter the hour or the time
of day
It is different every single
moment for however long this
might be
It is a single day, moment, second
of a lifetime spent with you
When I'm away from you
I think about you
You make me smile in my dreams
and in my day you are present
Yes, everything is new and exciting
as exciting as anything I have ever
experienced
I cannot find the words to say
that feeling you make me feel
I cannot tell you how in words
or just a few sentences all
that you encompass
I could write an entire book
of descriptions about how you
make me feel and still at the end
on the last chapter I will not be
done
for there will be more words
that I wish to tell you
but for now
I can only tell you
I love you