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Friday, November 11, 2016

Crossing the Line

In a peaceful time he came
all was even in her life
she moved to a new place, started a new life
four kids in tow and a husband away.
She has a contagious laugh and a wonderful spirit,
he face radiates confidence and happiness
she's from far away and dresses impeccably
but even all that could not stop him.

He asked her to meet him for coffee
she went wholeheartedly to the meeting place
they ordered coffee and a little snack to share
and with a smile she asked, "so how are you?".
And so he began
he told her how much he admired her
that her laugh was wonderful
her eyes beautiful, and softly tracing a finger
through the back of her hand talked about her soft skin.

The man started crossing the invisible line,
that red line that is implicitly there
no conversation will erased it
it is the divide. 

She retreated her hand immediately,
as if fired touched it
she trembled from head to toe, but it didn't show
the bitter taste of coffee ran through her tongue
and shivers down her spine just of the thought
of what the man was asking.

The man had crossed the invisible line,
that red line that is implicitly there
no conversation will erased it,
it is the divide.
I want you he said and nobody has to know
we can meet secretly now and then 
you can leave the kids at home
they are old enough.
I will tell my wife I have work to do
but I will be meeting with you,
and he smiled

He tried to touch her hand again,
but it had disappear beneath the table now
he wanted to touch her face, but she retreated
the plan was falling apart.
He had crossed the line,
the invisible, implicit red line of no return.
He had crossed the divide.


Sunday, March 27, 2016

Unshackled

The shackles have been removed
the door is open 
the vast immensity of the universe is now open
I stand at the threshold and look out
the air is pure, the sky is blue, it is a new day

Unshackled

I'm no longer that person tied up to the desk
tied to do one thing and one thing only
I'm no longer that shackled human
that meant to be free, and the breeze of the ocean
carries me forward destined to discover
new frontiers, new ideas, a new life

Unshackle

I will never be boxed-in again
nor worry about the hierarchy
or a reputation no more important
than my own.
My integrity is intact 
I've left on my own terms

I'm unshackle

Freedom at last, freedom at last
from the constraints of that horrible place
where some good memories were made
but most not. The spell has been broken
and the victory is mine, all mine

The shackles have been removed
from my head, heart and soul
ideas flow freely, love is infinite
the tastes in my soul are pure,
you cannot take that away

The vast immensity of the universe is now open
I stand at the threshold and look out
the air is pure, the sky is blue, it is a new day
filled with new hope, it is a new beginning




Unshackled - free at last!

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Not Equals

We are not equals, and we'll never be
those were the words uttered by a man
to me
We are not friends, and we'll never be
other words uttered by the same man
to me
You are rude, you know nothing
your ideas are stupid,
those were the words that the man uttered
to me
From now on - we don't talk to each other
you do your job, I do mine end of story
This is what I have put up with every day
from this man
We are not equals, peers or nothing
and we'll never be
those were the words uttered by a man
to me
A man who I thought deserved my respect
but alas not
He is just another man, that I knew
who lost my respect with the words, he uttered
to me


Monday, August 4, 2014

Demons

We've been intertwined
living together for years
far behind and ahead in the distance
yeah, we're buddies till the end


My demons follow me
but only because I let them
but what else can I do
they do have a deep hold on me
and there is nowhere to retreat

First I met weed, and oh yeah! She was so,
so, so soothing and sweet
she took me at times into deep sleep
and she played with my brain but 
not so much

Then the snowy powder came in
to play and I really loved her
she gave me that ecstasy no other
could give me, and she was so, so, so
loyal to me,
but I wanted her more
and more, each day
She calmed me down with her white
angelic presence leaving snowy traces 
on my face

My demons follow me
but only because I let them
but what else can I do
they do have a deep hold on me
and there is nowhere to retreat

Then, I was introduce to this
awe inspiring beauty
a diamond in the rough, really
beautifully smoked, it transported me
to the ends of the world
little did I know, she was the beginning
the beginning of the end

My demons follow me
but only because I let them
but what else can I do
they do have a deep hold
and there is nowhere to retreat

My little rocky friend, came and went
but it comfortably stayed
and others came too, to join the party
we had a good time together
she melted away in a little spoon
her bubbly presence mesmerized me
to no end

And then, in she went, through my veins
slowly like a raging fire she burnt
my heart, my vision, my brain

Oh she went deep inside of me
it took hold of my whole being
she became to possessed me
She wrapped me around her finger
so smoothly and fiercely
She is my true angel
my soulmate,
she is so lovely I cannot live without her


My demons follow me
but there was only one that
forever stayed, and I love her for it
she, I can depend on forever
her name is crystal meth, 
yeah that's my girl!
        

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Mind Creeper

It is a slow process
It slowly creeps into your life
It silently talks into my ear
That voice in my head
I feel like doing nothing
it says
Let's just lay here and wait
but wait for what, I wonder
I wait and nothing happens
But then, I know
My body feels tire
and I want to do nothing
I fall into an stupor, of sorts
It is creeping under my skin
I can feel it, sense it
It is whispering in my ear
you are worth nothing
look at all that work, and for what?
Look at you, have you seen that?
It is a slow process
It is slowly creeping into my life
It is whispering now in my ear
And ringing right into my brain
I can feel it, slowly, smoothly moving
like a drop of olive oil on my skin
it rolls down, leaving just a fine trace
a clear path of its presence,
into my head
Yeah, it is taking over
slowly but surely
it is taking control over me
my mind, my senses, my sanity
I can see it in the night
the shadow looms on the wall
like a mosquito buzzing around,
I slap it off but it moves, quickly
It is creeping
under the blankets at night
when I sleep, but I don't let it
It is trying to take over my dreams,
but I fight it with my white board
I put in a cage, where it can't escape
or so I thought
but it oozed out through the narrow slots
and onto the curtain
hanging like a shadow in Summer time
It is creeping on the wall
I try to catch it, but it is too smart
just when I think I got it, it escapes
until morning arrives
and I'm so grateful 
because it is light time and it won't get me
Until I turn around
and see it plaster on the wall
once again
sneering at me with satisfaction
"You cannot escape me, it says"
I shake my head, "Leave me alone" I say
But, it is relentless
I keeps slowly creeping
into my head
Then, with all my might
I fight it and it leaves me alone

But, it sits on the corner chair
in my room
It sits there and waits
at night, still sitting in the dark
with that sneer in its face
I feel it and I fear it
that IT will get me 
one of these days

Thursday, March 20, 2014

The Bully Won

I hated every day,
I get reminded of him
There are days that his presence in my head,
consumes me
But why?
Because I let it (him) consume me
I am outrage, irate even
He still there in his office
Living the life
He does not deserve, to be there
He was told a lie, probably of why I left
Honesty is never a priority, for many
People ask for honesty
But do not really want to hear it,
so I always say: "if you don't want honesty, don't ask"
I am honest to the core, too honest perhaps
I can't help it
Always been, since I was little
I got smack on the head for saying things like
"That dress is ugly, it doesn't suit you"
Or for my birthday once I got underwear
and I said: "Thanks just what I really needed"
I was given the look, that look that you are not
suppose to say things like that
But it was true, mine were falling apart
Mom had no money to buy us new
My boss once asked me to be honest,
But what really meant was, just tell me what I want to hear
But I didn't tell him what he wanted to hear
- I later found out -
And the snowball started coming down the hill
Then it got bigger and it continue rolling
slowly but surely it GREW
"No need to come to this meeting", at first
Then, "I don't think you need to be here today"
Later, "you behaved childishly"
On it went: "I don't like you"
It kept going: "You're making our department look bad
for saying good morning to everyone every day"
The last straw: "I'm an asshole and I will treat you like one"
That did it, so I complained to our boss,
he didn't do anything only pat him on the back for a job well done
I complaint some more to HR
"Really, he said that, Oh I don't think he meant that"
Talk to the boss again
I was ignored nothing was being done
so I QUIT and gave my two weeks notice
Then, the stunner came on Monday afternoon
The big boss called to tell me,
"Sorry we're letting you go, you're not the right person for the job"
I was escorted to the lobby
and left for dead
I cried, a lot
It left me scatter in a million pieces
scarred to the core

The BULLY won







Wednesday, January 8, 2014

A New Beginning

A new beginning, of sorts
we have been given
a brand new year to start new projects,
new dreams, more shopping
more gossiping, more of everything
or double of everything
A new beginning to make amends
some will make promises,
to never keep,
others make resolutions that brake too soon
and to never return
A new beginning with different ends
our lives will change or not,
but one thing remains the same
another 365 days have began
Let us begin
with no resolutions or promises
that we know will never keep
or resolved, for that matter
Let us be free for once
of self deprecation and constraints
of looking ourselves in the mirror
and not recognize who we see
or what we see
Let us begin with happy thoughts
of moments passed, good times
with friends and loves ones, and
to always recognized that nobody is perfect
Let us begin
a new adventure of work or fun
it doesn't matter
what matters this time
is that a new beginning
we have been given
without forgetting the things and people
we most value and treasure every day
and not ONLY when tragedy happens
A new beginning has began
Let us all do our best to love ourselves
a little more

Sunday, December 29, 2013

End of the Affair

We first met long ago in April or was it March?
when the snow slowly melted on the streets
the sun snobbishly showed its glow
we basked in its candor
we thought it would be the end of the affair
until Summer showed
Summer stealthy came
with mini-skirts showing its legs
with bosoms blossoming grand
protruding from every branch
growing stronger, longer, bloating
weeds being nipped and tucked at the buds
trying to end, this deadly affair
but there was no change
the affair just kept blooming,
day after day, we tried to never ended
but we realized, it was way too late
it was not the end of the affair
Then Fall swiftly arrived
with the winds at its back
cloudy days, stunning sunsets
some drizzle in its wings
and thunderstorms on its feet
And, the affair continued
We tried to ended again,
to no avail.
Please! Let me go but stay awhile
wrap me in your arms, we said to each other
let me see the colours of your skin
changing with the sun and flying away
in the wind
With arms wrapped around each other
we walked with high collars
hands tucked-in in our pockets
the wind blowing our hair with its breeze
Lets end it now
Let it be the end of the affair
but no you said, and we continue
When Winter came, it was really time
we met strangely in dark places
just far away from everyone else
but no end in sight
it is just the beginning of this never ending, affair
The cool windy days of Fall are gone
the trees bared at their wits ends
dried, emancipated from the burden of Summer
and blooming of Spring
Winter has come with force, threatening
with strong winds, even blowing snow
rain came, then the darkness surrounded us
And the affair continues
We said it will end soon, or so we hoped
The days are shorter, the nights seem even shorter
daybreak's early with sunny pink-reddish skies
gloomy dark clouds in the East at the horizon
and we are in awe of each other
And, we all know it will never
let us ended right now, but we all know too well
that this affair will continue
And, we with no choice accept it
when we wake up another day,
we bundle up and go to work with dark skies upon us
the wind blowing in our faces,
whistling in our ears, chilling us at the core 
rain boots, umbrellas, mitts, scarfs, and more
Let it this be the end of the affair
at least for this year 

 



Friday, December 13, 2013

WINTER

The dark days of winter have began
we confined ourselves to the inside
and in our cocoons we sit comfy
We wrap ourselves in blackness
heavy sweaters, wool socks and what not,
just to keep warm
The gloomy sky cries now, all the time!
the streets with heavy dark payment
also cry
Winter has come
no escape from it, we must deal with it
with our minds, hearts and souls
with all our might
so that it doesn't entrap us in the cycle
of the blues
It will be another long one, for sure
the gloomy days will last
the dark hours will be extended, until morning
the sun hidden behind a white curtain,
of clouds
The snowy mountain peaks, so beautiful in the distance
the sun never shines, it feels dark inside
Winter has come
no escape from it, we must deal with it
with our minds, hearts and souls
with all our might
so that it doesn't entrap us in the cycle
of the blues
The nights are better, because you know they are dark
and we will go to sleep under warm blankets
with arms wrapped around, legs entangle
bodies warming one another
the warmth of love traps you for the night
and we sleep tight on one of these winter nights
peace of mind, settles in
Winter has come
no escape from it, we must deal with it
with our minds, hearts and souls
with all our might
so that it doesn't entrap us in the cycle
of the winter blues
WINTER is here

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Your Love

Your love is like the water from the sky
It blinds me and fills me up
It satiates the thirst in my heart
and it makes it beat
The water of your love keeps me alive
it keeps me fresh and it gives me hope
It travels through my whole body
and fills it with a thunderous wave
Your love is like the night sky
infinite and pure, it lights up my life
it makes me dream and contemplate
the grandeur of your universe and your soul
Your love is like the sunshine 
it brightens up my life, every single day
it makes me smile with its subtle warmth
it brings happiness to my heart
You love is like the breeze of the ocean
it clears my mind and fills it with wonder
it makes me dream and swim the waves
it makes me jump without hesitation
into the crest of your arms
Your love is like the water from the sky
It blinds me and fills me up
It satiates the thirst in my heart
and it makes it beat
Your love makes me alive

Je t'aime cheri