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Monday, August 4, 2014

Demons

We've been intertwined
living together for years
far behind and ahead in the distance
yeah, we're buddies till the end


My demons follow me
but only because I let them
but what else can I do
they do have a deep hold on me
and there is nowhere to retreat

First I met weed, and oh yeah! She was so,
so, so soothing and sweet
she took me at times into deep sleep
and she played with my brain but 
not so much

Then the snowy powder came in
to play and I really loved her
she gave me that ecstasy no other
could give me, and she was so, so, so
loyal to me,
but I wanted her more
and more, each day
She calmed me down with her white
angelic presence leaving snowy traces 
on my face

My demons follow me
but only because I let them
but what else can I do
they do have a deep hold on me
and there is nowhere to retreat

Then, I was introduce to this
awe inspiring beauty
a diamond in the rough, really
beautifully smoked, it transported me
to the ends of the world
little did I know, she was the beginning
the beginning of the end

My demons follow me
but only because I let them
but what else can I do
they do have a deep hold
and there is nowhere to retreat

My little rocky friend, came and went
but it comfortably stayed
and others came too, to join the party
we had a good time together
she melted away in a little spoon
her bubbly presence mesmerized me
to no end

And then, in she went, through my veins
slowly like a raging fire she burnt
my heart, my vision, my brain

Oh she went deep inside of me
it took hold of my whole being
she became to possessed me
She wrapped me around her finger
so smoothly and fiercely
She is my true angel
my soulmate,
she is so lovely I cannot live without her


My demons follow me
but there was only one that
forever stayed, and I love her for it
she, I can depend on forever
her name is crystal meth, 
yeah that's my girl!
        

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Mind Creeper

It is a slow process
It slowly creeps into your life
It silently talks into my ear
That voice in my head
I feel like doing nothing
it says
Let's just lay here and wait
but wait for what, I wonder
I wait and nothing happens
But then, I know
My body feels tire
and I want to do nothing
I fall into an stupor, of sorts
It is creeping under my skin
I can feel it, sense it
It is whispering in my ear
you are worth nothing
look at all that work, and for what?
Look at you, have you seen that?
It is a slow process
It is slowly creeping into my life
It is whispering now in my ear
And ringing right into my brain
I can feel it, slowly, smoothly moving
like a drop of olive oil on my skin
it rolls down, leaving just a fine trace
a clear path of its presence,
into my head
Yeah, it is taking over
slowly but surely
it is taking control over me
my mind, my senses, my sanity
I can see it in the night
the shadow looms on the wall
like a mosquito buzzing around,
I slap it off but it moves, quickly
It is creeping
under the blankets at night
when I sleep, but I don't let it
It is trying to take over my dreams,
but I fight it with my white board
I put in a cage, where it can't escape
or so I thought
but it oozed out through the narrow slots
and onto the curtain
hanging like a shadow in Summer time
It is creeping on the wall
I try to catch it, but it is too smart
just when I think I got it, it escapes
until morning arrives
and I'm so grateful 
because it is light time and it won't get me
Until I turn around
and see it plaster on the wall
once again
sneering at me with satisfaction
"You cannot escape me, it says"
I shake my head, "Leave me alone" I say
But, it is relentless
I keeps slowly creeping
into my head
Then, with all my might
I fight it and it leaves me alone

But, it sits on the corner chair
in my room
It sits there and waits
at night, still sitting in the dark
with that sneer in its face
I feel it and I fear it
that IT will get me 
one of these days

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

A New Beginning

A new beginning, of sorts
we have been given
a brand new year to start new projects,
new dreams, more shopping
more gossiping, more of everything
or double of everything
A new beginning to make amends
some will make promises,
to never keep,
others make resolutions that brake too soon
and to never return
A new beginning with different ends
our lives will change or not,
but one thing remains the same
another 365 days have began
Let us beginning
with no resolutions or promises
that we know will never keep
or resolved, for that matter
Let us be free for once
of self deprecations and constraints
of looking ourselves in the mirror
and not recognize who we see
or what we see
Let us begin with happy thoughts
of moments passed, good times
with friends and loves ones, and
to always recognized that nobody is perfect
Let us begin
a new adventure of work or fun
it doesn't matter
what matters this time
is that a new beginning
we have been given
without forgetting the things and people
we most value and treasure every day
and not ONLY when tragedy happens
A new beginning has began
Let us all do our best to love ourselves
a little more

Sunday, December 29, 2013

End of the Affair

We first met long ago in April or was it March?
when the snow slowly melted on the streets
the sun snobbishly showed its glow
we basked in its candor
we thought it would be the end of the affair
until Summer showed
Summer stealthy came
with mini-skirts showing its legs
with bosoms blossoming grand
protruding from every branch
growing stronger, longer, bloating
weeds being nipped and tucked at the buds
trying to end, this deadly affair
but there was no change
the affair just kept blooming,
day after day, we tried to never ended
but we realized, it was way too late
it was not the end of the affair
Then Fall swiftly arrived
with the winds at its back
cloudy days, stunning sunsets
some drizzle in its wings
and thunderstorms on its feet
And, the affair continued
We tried to ended again,
to no avail.
Please! Let me go but stay awhile
wrap me in your arms, we said to each other
let me see the colours of your skin
changing with the sun and flying away
in the wind
With arms wrapped around each other
we walked with high collars
hands tucked-in in our pockets
the wind blowing our hair with its breeze
Lets end it now
Let it be the end of the affair
but no you said, and we continue
When Winter came, it was really time
we met strangely in dark places
just far away from everyone else
but no end in sight
it is just the beginning of this never ending, affair
The cool windy days of Fall are gone
the trees bared at their wits ends
dried, emancipated from the burden of Summer
and blooming of Spring
Winter has come with force, threatening
with strong winds, even blowing snow
rain came, then the darkness surrounded us
And the affair continues
We said it will end soon, or so we hoped
The days are shorter, the nights seem even shorter
daybreak's early with sunny pink-reddish skies
gloomy dark clouds in the East at the horizon
and we are in awe of each other
And, we all know it will never
let us ended right now, but we all know too well
that this affair will continue
And, we with no choice accept it
when we wake up another day,
we bundle up and go to work with dark skies upon us
the wind blowing in our faces,
whistling in our ears, chilling us at the core 
rain boots, umbrellas, mitts, scarfs, and more
Let it this be the end of the affair
at least for this year 

 



Friday, December 13, 2013

WINTER

The dark days of winter have began
we confined ourselves to the inside
and in our cocoons we sit comfy
We wrap ourselves in blackness
heavy sweaters, wool socks and what not,
just to keep warm
The gloomy sky cries now, all the time!
the streets with heavy dark payment
also cry
Winter has come
no escape from it, we must deal with it
with our minds, hearts and souls
with all our might
so that it doesn't entrap us in the cycle
of the blues
It will be another long one, for sure
the gloomy days will last
the dark hours will be extended, until morning
the sun hidden behind a white curtain,
of clouds
The snowy mountain peaks, so beautiful in the distance
the sun never shines, it feels dark inside
Winter has come
no escape from it, we must deal with it
with our minds, hearts and souls
with all our might
so that it doesn't entrap us in the cycle
of the blues
The nights are better, because you know they are dark
and we will go to sleep under warm blankets
with arms wrapped around, legs entangle
bodies warming one another
the warmth of love traps you for the night
and we sleep tight on one of these winter nights
peace of mind, settles in
Winter has come
no escape from it, we must deal with it
with our minds, hearts and souls
with all our might
so that it doesn't entrap us in the cycle
of the winter blues
WINTER is here

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Your Love

Your love is like the water from the sky
It blinds me and fills me up
It satiates the thirst in my heart
and it makes it beat
The water of your love keeps me alive
it keeps me fresh and it gives me hope
It travels through my whole body
and fills it with a thunderous wave
Your love is like the night sky
infinite and pure, it lights up my life
it makes me dream and contemplate
the grandeur of your universe and your soul
Your love is like the sunshine 
it brightens up my life, every single day
it makes me smile with its subtle warmth
it brings happiness to my heart
You love is like the breeze of the ocean
it clears my mind and fills it with wonder
it makes me dream and swim the waves
it makes me jump without hesitation
into the crest of your arms
Your love is like the water from the sky
It blinds me and fills me up
It satiates the thirst in my heart
and it makes it beat
Your love makes me alive

Je t'aime cheri

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Amor

Tu eres el centro de mi universo
cada día te adoro much más
te amo mucho más
te quiero mucho más
Eres el centro de mi universo
en el cual tu y yo vivimos
como un solo ser unaníme en la lucha
como fuerza inseparable
como el bastión de la vida
Amor
cada día te adoro much más
te amo mucho más
te quiero mucho más
te deseo mucho más

A través del tiempo
aprendo más de ti
te entiendo cada día más
te conozco mucho más
porque tu eres mi razón de ser
mi razón de vivir y amar mucho más
Amor
palabras nunca serán suficientes
para decirte cuanto te amo
cuando te quiero
cuanto te deseo
cuanto te adoro
cuanto amor mio
yo te quiero

Dark Corner

The little tyrant sits at his desk
all the way in the corner and
alone
Yes, alone in that lonely corner
where is dark and no light shines
from the outside or from the inside
The room is dark and gloomy
but only when you are there
The earth does not move in your world
except the one in your head
You are a little tyrant at the desk
lonely in the lonely corner
all by yourself with no window
in dark corner of this place
where you work alone
and nobody cares
I care because I'm writing about it
to release that terrible ache in my head
the slouch in my shoulders
the pain in my back
to get rid of the despondent cloud 
your bring to me every day
You are that little tyrant at his desk
all the way in the corner and
alone
Yes, alone in that lonely corner
where is dark and no light shines
from the outside or from the inside
The room is dark and gloomy
but only because you are there
with disdain in your heart and pain
in your soul
In this lonely world you live
with us but alone
alone with us you are
and we leave you there
in the dark gloomy corner
of your own sad existence
What a pity for such a brilliant mind

 

Saturday, March 2, 2013

On the Job

On the job
the pressures surmount
the expectations beyond belief
it is hard to take
and what I most do?
There is criticism,
judgements are made without care
fingers are pointed and blame assigned
it is hard to digest
and you cannot understand.
Sometime ago, I came and was accepted
now it seems that things have changed 
and your expectations, I cannot accept
for realistic that they might seem to you
it is wrong
and what I most do?
There is a wave coming on
I'm running to safety but I get caught
I go under and come afloat to grasp for air
just a millisecond of air, to survive
and still you do not understand
On the job
the pressures surmount
the expectations beyond belief
it is hard to take
and what I most do?
I am falling apart right between your eyes
but there's blindness
you called me a child and treat me like one
that I cannot accept
Your criticisms hurt 
your words daggers in disguise
yet, I sit here in your office  
and listen to what you have to say
I sit quietly, attentive and hang
to every word that flows out of our mouth
the hatred, the rage, the ire flows and flows
saliva dripping down your lips
like a black sea  
because I'm not what you want me to be 
On the job
the pressures surmount
the expectations beyond belief
it is hard to take
and what I most do?
There is criticism,
judgements are made without care
fingers are pointed and blame assigned

On the Job
but not like any other day 
and I wonder now, what I most do? 
      

   

      

Monday, February 11, 2013

Fading

Little by little
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind
you are leaving, forever perhaps.
I check pictures of you but the memory is
faint
So faint, it is hard to recall your sweet laugh
or your pensive gaze
Little by Little
you are fading away
The memories of yesterday are
being erase day by day
little by little
fading into the sunset
to never return
The memories of yesterday
now in a semi-blank canvas
that carried colourful traces,
shapes, images of great times
that are no more
Little by Little
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind  
you are leaving, forever perhaps.
I don't want to say good-bye
but I am
Our time together was grand
but not more, for awhile now
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind,
you are leaving, forever perhaps.
Or perhaps
I am slowly walking away
from those times we once shared
All I know is that,
little by little
you are fading away
from the recess of my mind  
you are leaving, forever perhaps